I used to wonder what made people so arrogant, so full of vile and hate.

I used to wonder what made people so arrogant, so full of vile and hate. I refused to believe people were born that way. Children are the most precious and innocent creatures. So begs the question, when does the change happen and more importantly why does the change happen?

I spent years trying to understand this. So I asked lots of questions, some invasive but I was always surprised by how people would quickly open up. As a person who tends to be more reserved this was different. The first thing I learnt is everyone has a story. Second was how rare it is to have someone genuinely listen to understand and not judge.

I have explored different questions in my life, like who is God and why should I believe in Him? Why is my religion correct and others are wrong? Do I really believe or am I just doing what I was raised to do? Is the Bible true or is it a weapon? What is the meaning of life if death is inevitable? But this question on why people are the way they are was not such an easy fit. Everyone had a different mask. Every mask had an occasion, some for family, others work, others romantic relationship and yes even masks they wore to avoid seeing themselves as they really are.

 The more I researched the more I learnt I was no better.

I too had skeletons in my closet i was never brave enough to address. Any time I was triggered I projected and hated. I begun to resent people and it made me bitter.

You can not control others or what they say or do. You can only control you. So why did people have so much power over my emotions? I became the very people I tried to understand. Angry, bitter and out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. Life was dark for so long and living was something I dreaded.

Flash forward to now, I understand why I went through that journey. I document the process in this blog in 6 categories. Each speaks on something different and the journey from broken to whole and all the in between.

I have learnt so much the last decade and I share this in hopes that Nari serves as a light for anyone who feels lost, those who want to get better but have no idea how or where to go for help.

Nari is different in that I talk from experience. I believe vulnerability and authenticity is what the world needs more of. Its what Nari offers.