This Blog Almost Didn’t Happen—Here’s Why I Changed My Mind

Writing has been my form of expression for as long as I can remember. Typically, my writing serves as an outlet for deep emotions I don’t feel safe expressing out loud.

For years, I dreamt of starting a blog or publishing my own books. I imagined doing book tours all over the world, seeing my books in different stores, or watching someone read my book in a coffee shop. But for years, my ideas remained rough drafts scribbled in notebooks or swirling in my mind.

Even writing this first post has been a struggle. Perfection wants to take over, while imposter syndrome lingers at the door, waiting for an invitation. Behind me looms the shadow of past failures, dimming the light and clouding my clarity. Writing has become a challenge when it’s not just for my eyes. Even now, every fiber of my being urges me to pause and start over. “It’s not good enough,” “It’s boring,” “No one wants to read this.” These thoughts go on and on.

I’m reminded of the story of Moses in the Bible (Exodus 3–4). When God called Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt, Moses was filled with doubts and questions. He claimed he was a nobody, poor in speech, and worried the Israelites wouldn’t listen. He even asked God to send someone else. I deeply relate to Moses’ worries. Why should anyone come to my blog? Why would anyone read it or pay attention to me?

The shift happens when I understand that the assignment is bigger than just me. That doesn’t make it less intimidating, but it changes my perspective. When God called Moses, the task wasn’t just about Moses. It was for the Israelites—people living in slavery under the Egyptians. Exodus 1 describes how the Egyptians were intentionally cruel because they feared the Israelites’ growing numbers. Exodus 3:7-10 says God heard the Israelites’ cries and came down to rescue them.

Moses had his doubts and fears. Truthfully, he wanted no part in the assignment. How often are we like Moses? Called to do something, but paralyzed by self-doubt, we opt out. The lesson I’ve learned from this story is that God is the orchestrator of all things, and life is bigger than just me. If Moses hadn’t obeyed, how many people would have continued suffering? How many children, mothers, fathers, and families would have remained in bondage?

Assignments and purpose rarely feel easy, right, or certain. But our part is obedience. What burden, gift, calling, or purpose lies before you that you’re too terrified to step into?

My remedy is simple: Get out of your head. There are people waiting to receive what you have, and your delay is not just hurting you but also those connected to your calling. Walking in alignment with your call is not a walk in the park. It has ups and downs, and navigating the in-between can feel like a nightmare you relive daily. It’s easy to give up at that point.

With that in mind, I introduce Nari—a mandate and assignment I should have obeyed a long time ago. Like Jonah, I ran from it and hit a dead end. Nari is a space to help you navigate the in-between. It’s more than just a blog.

Matthew 5:14 says, “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.” No matter your situation, you have a purpose. As long as you have breath in your lungs, there’s something greater for you. Something that fills your heart so fully the void disappears.

There will be opposition in pursuing your call, and many of those battles will be fought in your mind. Nari is a platform that sheds light on this journey. Think of it as a compass guiding you to your next step.

I’ve let go of the idea of perfection and overthinking. My part is obedience; God will handle the rest. Don’t tire yourself out as I did. It’s pointless. Trusting God shows faith in Him, not in yourself or your limitations. When Moses doubted his ability to speak, God reminded him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord?” (Exodus 4:11). Whatever your worries or uncertainties, remember who God is.

God created you and everything in the earth. Keep that in mind the next time imposter syndrome kicks in. It’s such a relief to know I’m not in control. All I need to do is obey.

Shalom!